As Seconds Become Minutes...

Minutes become hours... Hours become days... Days become weeks... And weeks become months.

I miss you. These past few days, crazy thoughts have been fleeting through my mind. Things I don't want to think of but they creep up in my head anyway. It's irrational, I know. But missing you this much is driving me mad. The thought of not being with you another second makes me wanna cry. I want to be with you so bad. I want to be able to hug you and kiss you and tell you these disturbing thoughts and hear you assure me they're simply senseless ideas. That you love me, and you'll never do anything to hurt me. Things I already know, yet I still want to hear you say.

I love you. You give meaning to my existence. Without you, I don't even know what I'd be. These words I utter are but a fragment of what I feel.

You. It always has been and will be you. I love you, Alick.

Missing You

We talked for no more than five minutes today. It feels unnatural not being able to hear your voice for at least thirty minutes per day. I miss you terribly. Earlier, I was thinking of how we were back then. Our movie dates every weekend, or drinking sessions with The Core every Saturday, TV series marathon on Sundays and breakfast in the morning when you get off work. There are so many things I miss. But most especially I miss the little things... How we held hands while you drove, the way you smelled after a night out ... cigarettes, beer and Aqua (which I just love by the way), when we listen to your favorite songs in the car, the way you hold my head when we kiss... Gosh. I could go on and on...

Yesterday we were talking about the kind of longing we have for each other... And I must say I'm really proud of us. We don't let it become a hindrance but instead we take it as a motivation to do the things we have to do, so that one day, we'll be together again. Inseparable. I can't wait. What's a couple of months compared to a lifetime, right? I love you. Everyday, I miss you.

Let Me Count The Ways

It's hard being 10,734 kilometers away from each other. I miss you. And I pray for nothing else but to hold your hand again. I've been thinking these past few days, why I love you and why I choose to be with you despite the distance...

You and I, we never pretended we're the perfect little couple. We accept our flaws and our differences, no matter how great they may be. Nonetheless we never let these things come in between us. We love each other no matter what. You're the pessimist and I'm the optimist, but then again we never failed to compromise. Our love is far greater than any obstacle we come across.

I love you because you never doubt me. I love you because you understand why I do the things I do and you get why I am the way I am. I can think of a million reasons why, but it all comes down to one thing. I love you because I love you. Sometimes reasons are not enough. And no words can live up to the thoughts in my head.

I'm thankful that we were given another shot to make this work. This time, I hope we do things right. This time, I hope we don't fail each other. Because I love you too much to ever let you go again.

"I don't need to find a million reasons why
This is us, this is us and this is how we love
Some ways we're different but together we're so right
This is us, this is us and this is how we love" ♥

Today.

It's been kinda crazy, the past month. It feels like a lifetime has passed since the day I realized I'm still in love with you. It feels like loving you is as natural as my breathing, and thinking of the days I wasn't with you makes me want to cringe. With everything that's happened, I just can't wait to hug you and be with you again. It's been such a roller coaster ride for the both of us and now it feels like everything is almost in place. I just want to do everything in my power to be with you and never leave your side.

I was actually in bed already and I was just thinking of you when suddenly I felt the urge to write my thoughts down. I was thinking of you and then I realized how much you made my heart beat faster. It's like every time I think of you, I have to stop and catch my breath. As corny as it may sound, but you actually take my breath away. You can't imagine how much love I have for you. You consume my every thought. Every second of everyday, I just want to be with you. I want to know again the feeling of having you beside me when I wake up, of kissing you goodnight before I sleep, of simply holding your hand through the night. I can go on and on about the things I miss about you. Although it's not the kind of missing that hurts, more of excitement. Each day I wake up, I get excited at thought of being one day closer to you. I always imagine what our life five years from now would be like. I hope we'd still be as in love as we are now, or even more. I can't wait, Love. I want to be with you every waking moment of my life.

You are my one true love, as I am yours.